I am guilty of this…
Pretty much describes it. It's all the depressing stuff I feel about myself that doesn't belong on my main account.
damn you, accuracy.
It still feels like you chose her over me, casting me aside so that you can have your parties with all of them instead. That’s what it’s become in my mind: THEM vs. ME
I feel like I am being punished because she was the asshole who was on the rebound and fails to even try to communicate. If its anyone’s fault it’s hers for being fickle and shallow. The only crime I am guilty of is falling for a girl.
Because of that, I am not welcomed over whenever as a best friend should. I don’t get to spend my weekends with you getting drunk and having fun, and I don’t get to out to eat with you like everyone else gets to, even though you said you’d no longer do it. It makes me feel like shit. Like you are all secretly laughing behind my back that after taking everything away from me, I still think of you as my best friend. I’m getting to the point where I need a true best friend, one who wants to hang out with me no matter what. One who says “you know what, she comes first, if you don’t like her, fuck off”. One that treats me like someone they can never replace. That’s how I feel right now with you… Replaced.
I live by this….
I wanna be someone’s fucking first choice.